I believe I've mentioned this before, but God tends to work with me in themes. There are major theme lessons that can last years and then there seem to be mini-themes wrapped up in there that he shows me in the everyday. The major themes tend to revolve around His character. For example, for the first several years of my marriage, God revealed himself to us consistently as provider. When we first moved here and were waiting on Ruthie, God revealed himself as my source of peace. And now he is revealing himself as my source of wisdom.
There are several places I am seeking wisdom (thus the theme). I have a mission trip I am praying about. Trent and I are preparing a series of talks for a marriage conference in a few weeks. I am trying to discern what is the right work/family balance for me with PT and photography. But most importantly we are seeking wisdom for Jack.
I haven't shared much of this hear lately because I don't want to violate Jack's privacy as he is a pretty private kiddo. I also don't want to draw attention to myself through my kids struggles because not only does that make it about me and not what God is allowing us to walk through but it also leads me to finding my identity in my children's struggles and I don't want to do that either. I do want to live honestly though and I know many of you love Jack and want to know what is going on and I don't want to keep that from you.
So here is the short and sweet and some ways you can being praying for us and my little guy. This fall Jack had a pretty significant exacerbation of his leg symptoms. He has been doing pretty well for the last year since his back surgery but then things started to change. I took him to a pediatric orthopedist who said that his legs are developing rotated and he recommended some pretty dramatic procedures. I have gotten one 2nd opinion and I we will be seeing a 3rd doctor on Wednesday for another opinion. He has a gait study on Thursday and an MRI very soon. We need to make a decision on how to best help this child now and in the long run. The hardest part is that he is really starting to grieve his condition.
Could you pray that we will make the best decision for him and that we will have a real peace about the correct choices. Please also pray for his heart that he will embrace his blessings and see his struggles as an opportunity for God to develop his character. And please pray that we could adequately balance our roles as comforter, motivator, and teacher.