If you have visited here before, you can probably see that I have changed the name of the blog again. I started blogging at 4URuthie to tell the story of our journey to adopt our 1st daughter. I changed it to Mountains for Maggie when we were praying for God to move mountains on behalf of our 2nd daughter. Well now it is no longer just Ruthie’s or Maggie’s stories. It is now our family's story, and the stories of those we share life with, as we Conquer Mountains together. Both ConqueringMountains.net and 4URuthie.blogspot will lead here.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
There are some days that I feel completely overwhelmed by the current wait or what could be if the wait is much longer than what we expect. Other days I feel resolved to do everything I can for her before she get here to make sure it is all ready for her arrival. Every now and then I want to pretend that the adoption isn't real so I don't have to deal with the fact that we are still waiting. Today, I feel this overwhelming need to cling to our family unit the way it is now knowing that it is about to change dramatically. I think this is a normal emotion whenever you bring a new person into your family, but nonetheless it is new to me this week and so my next resolve will be to make the most of the time we have left as just the 4 of us. I am hoping this stage brings my heart one step closer to being prepared for Ruthie's arrival.
Our adoption coordinator sent this to us this week and it has been a real encourager.
“I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.”
Monday, March 23, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
It seems like in everything I do lately, I have Ruthie on my brain. Everywhere I take my boys, I wonder what it will be like to go back there with 3 kids next time and will she enjoy it?Everytime I see an Asian child, doesn't matter if she is Chinese, Korean, or even Vietnamese, I try and picture her as Ruthie and wonder what that will feel like some day.
Well, I write another blog other than this one (www.heritagewomen.blogspot.com) and when I was updating it the other day on an outreach that our women's ministy is doing, my brain was so on Ruthie that I posted that entry to this blog. So if you looked at this blog and wondered why I was writing about hurricane destroyed San Leon, it was not because I had too much to drink, but because I have Ruthieitis and it is now affecting my ability to function in everyday tasks.
My incredible husband and kids are being really patient with me right now. Thank you for joining the circle of people extending grace to the crazy woman.
One more thing- I am posting a weekly prayer request for Ruthie in the right column here. I covet your prayers.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
How great to know that when we do not know what to do or how to pray that we don't have to just go and keep ourselves busy, but we can rest in Christ and know that the Spirit will help us and intercede on our behalf.
I struggle with how to pray because I trust that God already knew on the day that He created Ruthie exactly when she would enter our family, so who am I to pray that is sooner? So then what is this wait for? Well, I think it has to be for Him to teach us something and conform us into His image. I find peace today knowing that my comfort comes from the one who has also waited on an adoption when He waited for us to be adopted as his children through Christ.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
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