Trent and I approached this form with prayer and a lot of internet research. We felt like we had a pretty good picture of "what we could handle".
When Ruthie's referral came, she had a diagnosis of "both hands endoduction abnormality" and a few other things consistent with institutionalization. There was no mention of the involvement of her elbows or shoulders.
Early in the process, a story like this would have so frightened me. However, I can easily say that I am glad that I didn't know. Trent and I talked the other day about how if we had approached this process on our understanding, we might have had a very different outcome and we would have missed out on one of the best gifts God has ever given us.
Adoption is a scary thing. Yes there are a lot of unknowns but I can say that it was one of the greatest steps of faith I have ever taken and I have not regretted it for a single moment.
I am glad I didn't know that her elbows and shoulders were also involved in her diagnosis because I am scared to think how that might have affected my decision to move forward and it brings me tears to think about what I would have missed out on.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight.