Enjoying Today

Today I am operating in the reality that while my RA is not here yet, my time with my family, as I know it now, is still limited.   I am trying not to focus on the temporal worries that the adoption  timeline brings, but instead to focus on what is eternal and that is my influence on my family as it is right now.  

As I read the blogs of other adoptive families, I cannot help but realize that the next year could be really difficult with Ruthie.  We are most likely going to have challenges with attachment, adjustments with the boys, and potentially several surgeries ahead of us.  When I look at it like that, I am ok today to just enjoy what God has for me right now.   

A sweet friend of mine said today, "God will not give you more than you can handle".  I appreciate her encouragement, but I think she is wrong.  I think God consistently gives us more than we can handle so we will find our sufficiency in Him and then He can be glorified in our lives.  I fully expect this to be a reality over the next year with Ruthie.  The weird thing is that I am actually looking forward to that because my relationship with Christ is always stronger on the other side of that process.

Another friend pointed me to Psalm 103 today and specifically to the verse that says, 

"who satisfies your desires with good things "

Boy do I want this to be true through this process.  I will lay down all my desires for a speedy RA if the outcome could just be "good".  Reality is that the outcome is only going to be "good" if it is God's design.  This is what I really want.  It is just so hard to stay focused on that when I look at her pictures and into her pretty little eyes and just feel so deeply the desire to pick her up and hug her for hours.  

I am posting Psalm 103 below. I hope it encourages you today too.

Ginny

Psalm 103  

1 Praise the LORD, O my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
2 Praise the LORD, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits-
3 who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
5 who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.
6 The LORD works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed.  (AMEN!)
7 He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel:
8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
9 He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
13 As a father has compassion on his children,
so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;
14 for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.
15 As for man, his days are like grass,
he flourishes like a flower of the field;
16 the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
17 But from everlasting to everlasting
the LORD's love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children's children-
18 with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts.
19 The LORD has established his throne in heaven,
and his kingdom rules over all.
20 Praise the LORD, you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word.
21 Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will.
22 Praise the LORD, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.
Praise the LORD, O my soul.