If you have visited here before, you can probably see that I have changed the name of the blog again. I started blogging at 4URuthie to tell the story of our journey to adopt our 1st daughter. I changed it to Mountains for Maggie when we were praying for God to move mountains on behalf of our 2nd daughter. Well now it is no longer just Ruthie’s or Maggie’s stories. It is now our family's story, and the stories of those we share life with, as we Conquer Mountains together. Both ConqueringMountains.net and 4URuthie.blogspot will lead here.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
On a more positive note, it is interesting to look back over the last few months and see how God has inclined my heart to Ruthie. For the longest time Ruthie was just a name without a face and then I had a face and a name but in my head they were not one yet. I remember reading people's blogs where they would refer to their "daughter" and it was hard for me to think of her like that since she was not with me. God has done an incredible work over the last few months as now I can comfortably call her my daughter and I truly love her even though we haven't met YET.
This wait has been on one level one of the loneliest times of my life as I have struggled with emotions that those around me couldn't possibly understand. Not even Trent could relate to what I have been experiencing as the journey for dad is so different than the journey for mom. At the same time, it has been one of the least lonely times in life as I have become part of a community of international adoptive parents that know exactly what I am going through. They will send me emails or post to their blogs my exact thoughts and emotions. This has been incredibly validating because without them I would constantly wonder if my fears, frustrations, and thoughts were normal. Thank you to Naomi, Cheri, Kristine, Jenn, Colleen, and many others for sharing your stories. They keep me sane and give me hope for what lies just around the corner.
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