So minutes after pondering my in inadequacy I began to see things from what might be if I trust God and walk into this not by my own knowledge (because I had none) but by His Spirit. Can I tell you that I really think God did some good work and I sit here tonight in awe that He would trust me enough to allow me to be a part of His plan. I smile because it feels a little like God took me to the office with Him and then allowed me to push some of the buttons at his desk. I know that sounds ridiculous but that is the best analogy that I can think of for how small I feel in this situation and for how blessed I am to be included.
Opportunities like that always leave me hungry for more. More chances to not just serve in the comfortable and familiar but to step into the terrifying. I went skydiving when I was in college so if you don't mind, I will use that to expand my analogy. When I jumped off that airplane wing, I had to trust that my parachute would open. I think following God into the unknown and personally inadequate is a little like that. You can either stay on the plane and ride it safely back down or you can trust Him, step onto the wing, and jump for the flight of your life then finally soar as He guides you to the end so you can join Him at work. I don't know about you but that is the life for me.
You can pray for this ministry opportunity because it will not be over for a long time and my inadequacies run deep. Pray God would use us to accomplish only His purposes.
And I will pray for you that God will pack your parachute and call you to something great and terrifying so you can see Him at work in His office too. :)
Today's Side Note:
These are overdue pictures from our Thanksgiving travels to see lots of family