There are so many times in my life when I wish God would speak to me so I have to be thankful now that He is speaking. One of my prayers through this process has been that I wouldn't walk away the same person who walked into it. I think He is making sure of that.
I have been reading Beth Moore's book Believing God where she has been using the OT story of the Isrealites entering the Promised Land to talk about having faith to see God's promises in your life come to pass. Today she referenced Num 15:37-41 which says,
37The LORD also spoke to Moses, saying,
38"Speak to the sons of Israel, and tell them that they shall make for themselves tassels on the corners of their garments throughout their generations, and that they shall put on the tassel of each corner a cord of blue.
39"It shall be a tassel for you to look at and remember all the commandments of the LORD, so as to do them and not follow after your own heart and your own eyes, after which you played the harlot,
40 so that you may remember to do all My commandments and be holy to your God.
41"I am the LORD your God who brought you out from the land of Egypt to be your God; I am the LORD your God."
Throughout this process I have had "the perfect plan" several times regarding when and how to go get Ruthie. My friend Kristine has reminded me on several occassions that we have to keep the Master before the mission. This is so much easier said than done. Right after reading this part of the book, I placed a blue beaded bracelet on my wrist to remind me to take active steps that would lead me towards Him and not just my will.
Right after that, I checked my email and my friend Amy had sent me this link
where someone has written an incredible illustration reminding us that God sees the bigger picture and His ways are perfect.
So today I am walking in the truth that God still speaks and and we can trust that His ways are perfect even when we can't see the plan yet.