Addendum: It is 2:30 am right now and I cannot sleep. I still feel nauseated from the emotional roller coaster of this day. I figure I have covered crazy, emotionaly unstable, nesting, and weight gain so why not nausea to go ahead and make this adoption feel like a pregnancy.
I was just thinking about how present God has been through all of this. A friend of mine tells a story about a bird that followed her from room to room and would tap on her window. This experience has felt a little like that with God. No matter where I went, He was constantly there chasing after me and tapping on the window of my heart to get my attention. That he would love me that much amazes me.
I better try and get some sleep. Sam is having a pulpotomy on a tooth tomorrow so he is going to need me to be well rested. Fat chance.